Hey guysssssss. I know it's been a hot minute since I've updated (I'm sure you all 2 of you missed me dearly), but I've been extremely busy the past few weeks. I took the ACT (I haven't gotten my scores back yet, but I will say the ACT has my name tattooed on his ass cheeks), I moved (I'M SO HAPPY), and I had a real "prayer meeting" with my parents.
Okay so right now the ACT stuff isn't as important as the other stuff, so I'll talk about that stuff first.
Alright, about the moving: I have never been so happy in my entire life. Ugh. I'm just so content. I am satisfied and I am content. MY LIFE IS AWESOME OKAY
Last night, I did something that I've needed to do since I moved out of my parent's house. I called and attempted to tell them how badly they've messed me up. I used to get so so so mad at everything for no good reason. And I could never figure out why. But last night, I came to the realization that it's because I used to get in trouble for NO GOOD REASON. So I was just continuing the cruel, cruel cycle by becoming infuriated with myself and everyone around me at the drop of a hat.
I called, and started laying into my stepfather. He's the man that has haunted me my entire life. I felt so tortured by him when I was a kid. I truly believe that he took my family away from me. He took my mother away from me. And last night, I told him where he could stick it. He hung up on me, which tells me that he knows I'm right. He knows that he took away my childhood. He knows what he did, no matter how hard he tries to deny it. I have power over him now. I am stronger, smarter, and certainly more attractive (don't act like you don't know) than him. I've never believed it until today.
My mother called back and tried to argue with me, and she said "Halley, I can't talk to you when you're distraught."
To which I said, "Mother, I'm not upset. I have something to say to him, and he isn't hearing it." I decided to not let her feel like I was just upset and having a tantrum. I wouldn't let her get away with talking to me like I was still 6 years old. I felt really good about yelling and screaming at them. I don't regret it at all. Mr. Rojas may have hung up on me, but he knows. He knows how badly he hurt me.
Sometimes all you have to do is plant a seed.
